How much I hate myself

This month I proved myself that I am total loser. Quit another job because once again I am so hard on myself. All I had to do was do a 90 degree back with a 53’ trailer and I just couldn’t. I got lucky in other areas… sure but I just couldn’t figure it out. I don’t deserve having a Class A license. Why do I have it? What’s the point of anything I do? I have no goals and no more hobbies. All I ever wanted was to be love by someone so I can actually try and do things, but how, when people are disgusted by my presence. I suffer from severe visual disorder (ugly as all hell.)

I hate myself so much, so so much. I feel so sorry for anyone who knows me. I see no worth in the world anymore. I literally ran out of f***s to give.